room of doors- I

Its been like forever since I blogged.let me strt with tis opening....there are too many doors and u genly open the door where u know wat is inside ...even though wat is there may nt be actually good enuf for u and u know tht...u still go to tht room over and over again....there is a time wen u re fed up and decide to open another door...a locked door and the key u ve to search for tht...to make sense of all this let me go back by 2 months.SO here goes….
I just got out of mess I put myself in.And I needed a thingto not go back.Lucky for me I had a nice frnd with whom I can talk for hours together . I was obesessed with reading,it was just mad obsession.It was nt like I was planning to get into amazon coz I knew tht was one of the biggies and already my peers ve been rejected.But as I said it was just obsession to read coz even my frnd was reading heavily for gre and I cud take tht as an incentive for my prep.Thn in between wat wud ve been a big punch thnkfully turned out to be nt, coz I cudnt actually attend the interview but I would like to think I convinced the hr to try me. Thn finally the interview day I remember very well.I tend to become nauseous wen I m tensed and had ejected all the semi converted nutrition tht was supposed to hold me for the day.Thn on the way I had a pounding headache coz I cudnt sleep the previous day.Had to make a quick pittstop and pop a pill and my cap blew away so had to hear an earful frm my dad who was kind enuf to drive me here.
Now interview….well after attending two interviews of othr companies I thought I knew how these things go abt.I was asked to get in and all I cud remember while I was walking down to cabin was---- I shldnt fall down while walking(coz my sandal broke btw).wen I was finally in, the kind interviewer introduced himself and thn we gt settled in.my hands were freaking cold by thn.Imagine my shock wen I was handed a black marker pen and was asked to to stand up to answer the questions.On the outside I gave a smile and ws like ya sure.In the inside I was ballastic and all tht went in me was –is he kidding me,wat the hell.Thn strted the fire of qns. I guess all tht prep gave me some confidence to take each problem he asked me objectively.Throughout the gruelling 1.5 hr I cannot tell u wat went thru my mind coz honestly nthng did.i remember my hand shaking ,throat dryand oly the qns and yaa his glue stuck smile :D.i don’t know y but interviewr was obsessed with giving me coffe and sending me to restroom. I lost the guy’s marker and attempted a fruitless search.The second round was a mix of designing qns and modelling and hr.Honestly I cudnt care less coz I thought my frst round went hay wire.i was playing around with my hands ,and hair a bit,I doubt I was observed.Nyways after coming out we all thought we were goners and iwas like comparing my hr answers where I dint show any team spirit,I was feeling a bit bad tht I cudnt come up with such a tactful answers.Finally the train ride was new,I caught a running train(the train was running ) and ya I had to let my parents have a clear idea tht i m nt gonna get in coz expecting parents are very hard to appease.T hn I called my frnd and after a brief overview on my day which took like 1.5 hrs she said I did fine. Thn rite after a week ,on december 4th wen I was with my frnd watching sawariyaan I gt a call confirming my place.Well wat can I say sawariyaa is the movie where I had an awesome time watever may be the reasons[:DD].
All this just goes ahead to prove tht everything is upto us.How we turn out in the end…….its our choice….if we call it quits coz we ve no shot…..if we just blame everything on ppl around us for giving us a tuff time……if we just limit ourselves afraid to push to the limit…….if we are afraid to take a chance…….or IF WE JUST DECIDE ENUF IS ENUF and go ahead and do something abt ourselves.
Next blog abt the othr month.