RIP Teena Brandon (Boys Dont Cry)

This is one of the very few movies that has touched me to the core.More so since its a true story. I cannot believe that something like this happens even in a country like USA . I actually saw the documentary on teena brandon and that was even more touching.I probably dont know anything about trans people,gays or lesbians and I think I have never met one.hmm i guess i met trans people ..hmm i dont know...but those people scare the hell out of me..cuz of the brazen way they behave and try to demand money from you...Looking back now...I feel they just dint have any other way than act brazen...If they dint majority of us that is straight people would totally crush them and their spirit and outcast them. We have already done that to a large extent.I just dont get why we have to be so unfair to these people just cuz they are not wired the same way as most of them are.I mean if they were the majority we would have been freaks!!!
What happened to teena brandon and many of the untold stories is just the outcome of our own nonsense. I have never felt more awkward than this about anything I have ever written.The sad part is even the people who committed the crime,one can totally get from where they are coming.With their background and culture and history you just have to be surprised if they dint do this to her or him as she would have preferred.I admire Teena Brandon for not succumbing to majority and live a lie...cuz she could have happily lived her life if she cud just pretend...stangely enuf to live honestly she still had to lie and pretend to be a guy :((..When did we humans became so hypocritical and cold hearted.How can we outcast someone based on somethign as trivial as this?I do hope that a day will come when everyone can welcome each other with pure heart and an open mind.Those 5 people who died and many more who are victims of such hate crimes should atleast make us realise that Nothing is worth all this nonsense.I have no idea how to conclude this....just that We have no right to judge anyone...jus cuz we are many in number...i always used to make a big deal about male domination over female...i never realised about the impact we have had on these people...we need to learn not to give a damn about these damned things!!!!!!!

Jus like tht :D

The spring semester has already started ufff and I need to start getting serious about it.I have been missing my early morning classes way too often that its now like a habit.Partly its the naruto that i have strted watching recently.Luving it everybit especially sasuke uchiha :))making me burn my midnite lamp :D...havent stayed awake for anything as much.I guess am kinda riding high cuz of prev sems gpa :) touchwood ..Need to gt some decent internship uffff and need to go back to india in summer...man i miss parents ,frnds and the awesome pani puri most of all :((.
Staying alone without my roomie especialy on weekends driving me nuts but wierdly nt feeling that socialisable either or to go out ....this is very much unlike me..i luv meeting and talking with ppl..but these days feeling very much anti social..guess things are taking its toll and i have bcm calmer :D..hehe.One thing am indulging in these days is cooking...i guess by this month end i ll be fat and an awesome cook..man am bcmng awesomer by the day :D nt to brag or anything hehe...my curries are perfect no more extra spice or tht extra bit of salt...am making new sweets and experimenting and eating a lot too...like every othr grl i am obsessed with bcmng fat ..since cmng to USA i believe every time i put up a pic i keep asking ppl this general qns hav i bcm fat?Iowa is sunny for a change :) but not tht its making a difference for me..i hav chosen to stay shut in my house enjoiying my solitary confinement with my cute dolphin and the gollum tht i gt frm 3d model...and i luv my voice mail greeting tht ihave recorded...after many days i finally gt it set up hehe..i guess its one of those times where u jus luv everything..though there is ntng specially gr8 abt thm hehe...even the lil things and unimp things make me smile now..donno why am i beaming so much :D...probly cuz things havent yet gt on my nerves..signing off until next time with some sensible stuff :D...

.......Sarfarosh ki tammanna ab humare dil mai hai....

They say it doesnt take miracles,it doesnt take many people, it doesnt take battles.. to change history...its just a thought...an individual....a determined heart that inspires the entire course of history......

Maybe its the fables or fiction...frodo,sam,maximus.....to hitler,bhagath singh...etc.,...It may not always change in good way but the impact resounds everywhere.....The strength that an individual requires to become so powerful comes from people around you,events around you and a dream...a hope that there is something that is worth your entire life.....Man has reached this stage in todays world because of that dream...where is that now? what has happened to us?Are we always going to remain as people who are in history or are we going to be the ones who make history? ...There are so many things that are happening around that is crying for someones attention ,for someone to be inspired...there are so many people around us who have been with us inspiring us with their stories of courage,love and bravery. What is the dream of mankind?Is it not like insulting your dream with so many trivial thoughts as dream?Where is the hope ....or has it been lost in the shores of brutality,hatred and selfishness that has been bitterly shadowing the corners of the world....has everything become so inhuman...mechanical...that am afraid a day will come when seeing a dying person ...one would exclaim "the human has stopped functioning!"........one dies in a split second...ones life cant be so goalless and aimless and insignificant...
there was a dream that is life......one should realise it.....