Sweat broke on my temples. I just stood looking with my mouth open. Somehow somehow just that moment my voice couldn’t travel out. Everything happened in a second. It was the only moment in my whole life that I regretted.
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I remember the day quite clearly. It was june 10,1938. I hardly slept the whole night. All night I was justifying the act I was going to commit .i was going to murder a murderer………SCOTT. Lala bahadur shastri, one of the greatest men of our country was beaten to death in midst of nation. I was there . I was right there. I watched lathis charging on him. He never deterred. He just stood there standing up for what he believed. I remember the look he had on his face just before he died. It showed nothing of regret or fear . it was just a look that said it all and nothing too. What I saw on his face is what u see in this earth. In this soil. In freedom. Freedom of nation, of mind, of soul. i think i should say it was like setting sun. but really i felt that sun dawned on us then.The entire nation mourned his death. That’s what I read in newspapers. I for one decided its enough. Enough is enough. There is a level of frustration and that day it all broke out. I decided to avenge for freedom by murdering him. I ,bhagath singh stood now where I stood when I was 9 yrs old in jalianwallah bagh. But this time things are different. This time I m going to do what I couldn’t then. Fight .
The plan was all set. Timings were predefined. That day sun rose in the east as usual.i cannot explain what eternal pleasure i derive when seeing something so powerful be with u. When I came out side I met with rajguru. He and I are going to be around center plan. We never talked much that day. We just looked at each other and everything was understood. So we set out at 9:00 am. Me, rajguru and bismail. Bismail was our look out . me and rajguru cycled and bismail was in disguise. He gave us our first signal to shoot. I removed my gun and……. Plunged a bullet. I dint shake a bit. Everything went out with bullet. It hit him on his shoulder. The next second all guards scrambled the place. There was no time to lose. We had to run and fast. We got out of cycle and started running. Chased by Indian guards was pathetic but they cant help what they are doing and we cant help our love for freedom, country. We sort of got split. When I started running through one gully what I saw made my heart stop. Sweat broke on my temples. I just stood looking with my mouth open. Somehow somehow just that moment my voice couldn’t travel out. Everything happened in a second. It was the only moment in my whole life that I regretted. Rajguru pulled trigger. It hit right on his chest. On the SCOTTS chest. But this was the wrong scott. This was not the scott we set out to kill. The whole scene dissolved in front of me. It cud be bcoz my eyes were full of water. The blood from scott would have touched my feet had I stayed there. I dint. Bismail voice shook me. I had to run. I ran. I ran like hell without turning back. Ithout looking at what happened.
I always believe there were two kinds of people one who deny their actions and the second kind who run away from them and then there was always the third kind who took responsibility for their actions and did something about it. I don’t know which kind I was.Guilt is an interesting thing, it can tear u apart and also gives u courage to do brave things.by the time u re reading this i wud ve already thrown bomb in the assembly and gt caught. i knew I had to die but I wudnt die in vain. It looked simple. I never told my countermates what was the real reason behind my second and last phase. the thing is sometimes without saying everything is said. a little gesture, a kiss, a hug , a .............sacrifice.even a whisper is enough to raise ur hope. a determined heart can change the course of history. what is independence if our hearts and souls are nt free. revolution is change not in political side, nt in economic side no nt in any of dat. it is a calling , a wakening of mind and soul to break the shackles and reign over.
i may remember the first step i took..........but my last step will be remebered by all. i never thought my journey would end so abruptly but the important thing is the journey, nt the longevity. i dont kno 4 wat reason i was born, they say u ve to find ur own destiny. i dont know if this is my destiny but i ve no regrets even if this wasnt.
INQUALAB ZINDABAD!!
LONG LIVE REVOLUTION!!
FOR HUMANITY!
FOR TRUTH!
FOR INDIA!!
JAI HINDH!!!!!!