IS DER A TOMORROW WITOUT HOPE?

Life is screwed up ,god it hardly makes sense now.everything seemed so crystal clear just a few months back now......its just so damn twisted.I guess i m overreacting for some of the apparent unfairness in life but i ve gt a plan. A plan is all it takes for hopeless man to spring into action.Anyways wanted to write a lot of things in my blog.......but well time for a fresh start so i ll do that.This is something thats been in debate for a long time atleast for me.EXISTENCE OF GOD? Does he really?how?when?what? a lot comes into our mind.here i would like to cite one of my insightful grandpas ..citation....there was man in his neightbhouring house and after many many years of devotion,they could finally conceive a kid.the man used to take utmost care of his son,bathe him daily,love him and nourish him.one fine day while he was bathing his son ,the son collapsed ...tht was the end of it.the man had lost it ,everything,he had only one consolation to think that god is there he took my son and is looking after him.tht was the only way how the man could survive,could get on with his life with some strength......so my grandfather just told me that day whats the use of debating on that if god is there he i s there if he is not there fine but its ok to believe he is there because that gives us courage to go on,that man needed that and god was the only way he could get that,otherwise he would have been totally broken man or may nt be alive for that matter. There wouldnt be a tomorrow for him.The gist here is sometimes its ok to believe something thats not totally true coz there is no harm in it but it is just a way to heal urself.Well i being the way i am getting overwhelmed with previous generations and condemning them like every othr gen next..... m perfect atheist.i just say one thing false hope may be ok for now,but in the long run it ll hurt us even more.Statistics seem to show atheists more as psychos compared god fearing counterparts in society.Living in an illusion,leaving things to someone not there,it does comfort us.Godfearing ppl are always limited in their brutality to the society.Looks like living a lie is better than sulking and spreading ur dark aura around.Knowledge and analyzing is of what use when they only worsen ur pain.So i decided that it is wise to trod for once a path followed by the herd but knowing that u re just in a dream.After all we fake all our emotions.To get over stuff we fake to be happy,to not hurt others ,to gt something,to not let thm kno what u re u fake it all.This is not a big thing,its just one of the many lies that one has to contend with to make his journey a bit more tranquil.But sometimes there comes a vent and u want to break loose,thats some deadly leap which ll hurt ur defense like hell ,tht the possibility of breaking it down is more.Life is fullof lies,defense to protect urself from getting hurt,however lately my defense seems to ve gone weak or its seems to ve shielded down coz of vexation of this whole delusion,once u think what the hell,lets live normally,lets let our guards down and booom the worst what u feared the most happens.u gt hurt and now u re making pathetic attempts to mend it............ull be successful if u believe ther is someone behind u to make u successful. I want to believe that ....i want to recuperate my broken soul, i want to believe i can,becoz i ve someone who looks after me.I want to believe my plan will work out coz its my last thread of hope.Its difficult to mend nything especially matters as delicate as close to u, wen a series of arrows pierce u ,u ve to fall down And give in but i would like to believe i ve strength to gt back up and resurrect my defenses.It might be an illusion but it surely gives me some light in my dark room,its an oasis in dessert which keeps me going in my path,not giving in and falling down.
I guess thats what keeps so many millions of victims, sufferers going all over the world.i cudnt for the world imagine how so many ppl who ve lost many more in massacres gt over it resurrected their lives and those of their coming generations.i guess its hope that there is still better to come that kept them going.............if they had none of that we would not have any of all this.A man without hope is just living dead man.......some ppl get close to it.............some are just that.......some like me would like to belive that they are not so and pick up thread frm there on.............